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Procrastinating Patty

This has absolutely nothing to do with PCOS. I am procrastinating Patty! These last two weeks have been overwhelming for me. Not because of some life altering event that happened. Simply, I have been procrastinating because of sleep,work,school, blah, blah, blah, or whatever else excuse sounds good. I am currently in full force mode have to play  catch up the last few days. I said all of this to say I apologize I have not been writing. I have been working on the next post but I had to do a little research. Plus in between my procrastinating I have a few experiences to share that deal directly with PCOS.

I never knew that telling the world something so private could be so therapeutic and so draining at the same time. It takes a lot of energy to be ‘brave’…which I say in the most humble way.  I just wanted to tell my story to educate men and women. I never thought of myself before this as brave or inspiring. I have always been inspired by the people that I love and adore. I want to thank all of you who have sent emails, texts, phone calls, and comments. I LOVE the support and I never imagined the response I have received. You all motivate and inspire me. Let’s continue to support and encourage one another. I cannot thank you enough!! I love you all!!

Procrastinating Patty is now procrastinating here again because I don’t feel like reading another 30 pages or going through the drama of getting prepared for bed. So I do what I do best let my thoughts and over analyzing take over and procrastinate a little more. I have riled myself all up feeling emotional and wanting to hug the world. This only gives me more time to “spare” .  ;) My brothers would laugh at me now and tell me “stop being so sensitive” and my big cousin would tell me to “stop whining”.

Love and Life Lessons

“We are not born to live in turmoil. We are born to live in peace and freedom, giving and receiving, loving and being loved. You might ask, “So what goes wrong?” Lessons. In our peaceful, loving freedom, we must learn lessons which will eventually make us stronger, wiser and better people.” Iyanla Vanzant

 Tonight will be short. I just wanted to simply say this quote by sister Iyanla is on point right now for so many reasons. Not just for me, but my family, and friends we are all going through so much.  Life lessons can definitely get the best of us. So we must continuously encourage one another and ourselves. I am thanking God for all his blessings and future blessings (a good girlfriend taught me to that…invaluable…thank God for future blessings!) This past week has been emotional I was 13 days late starting my cycle. Although I knew better I took a pregnancy test anyways because I cried at work when a little old man gave me chocolate! The last few weeks I have been super emotional. After the pregnancy test came back negative I cried again. I was hoping it was my moment that “miracle baby”.  This one incident of a negative test that I already knew would be negative devastated me…again. How many times has my cycle been late or non-existent? Countless. PCOS got the best of me THAT DAY. I know God has something destined for me. My lessons are all preparing me for God’s divine plan. Please know that whatever you are going through, whatever lessons you are faced with at this moment, He is preparing you for your victory. Now when you are getting weak and that lesson has come remember it is to make you stronger, wiser, and better. We may not know all the answers why this or that has happened but we must trust in God.

God thank you for all that you do. God thank you for all that you will do. God thank you for keeping my family strong even in their weakness right now. Thank you for all of our tears that you will wipe. Although, our hearts will always have emptiness thank you for fulfilling that emptiness with precious memories. Thank you for blessing us with each other so we can continue to bless others. Thank your for the past, present, and future.


The Beautiful Ugly Truth



Gross huh? Yes this is MY chin. Yes this is PCOS in the flesh for you, literally. One of the main symptoms of PCOS is called hirsutism excessive hair growth on women where hair does not traditionally grow or is minimal.  Although I’m extremely embarrassed to show this I want to be very candid and honest. One of my best male friends will probably text me after this post and say “I always knew you were a man!” LOL Its friends like him and family that keep me going. I know I’m not alone in this. I know there are so many women dealing with the “chin hair blues”. Some of you who may not even have PCOS but know that the best lighting is in your car with your visor mirror down anytime between 7:30am and 4:30pm on a beautiful sunny day! Or the mirror at work with the fluorescent lights! When I used to be a flight attendant I would go into the laboratories and come out with the cleanest shave!! LOL (Of course this was after I was done with my shift)  “Chin hair blues” make you keep your tweezers around like your license or credit card! I don’t leave home without it! Now I know some of you are “pluckers”, “waxers”, or “shavers”. I am a professional “plucker”. I have tried waxing and I’m too scared to shave. I’ve thought about electrolysis. That’s all it has ever been was a thought. Now some of us have chin hair and a mustache (raises hand). Now when it comes it to the mustache I’m ‘scurred’ I leave my baby ‘stache’ alone! I’m always open to suggestions….

I can remember one of my first fertility appointments the doctor sat down with me for a consultation he looked at me and said “I see your facial hair. Have you ever been diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome?” I laughed a little to myself “why he looking at my beard?” I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2003 after one of my cysts ruptured.  I saw my OB-GYN and she explained nothing about what the condition was and prescribed birth control as remedy to control it. I went on my merry way for the next seven years not knowing what I was dealing with.  Now I was sitting with this doctor checking out my beard telling me that PCOS along with my endometriosis (I will save that topic for another day) was contributing to me not conceiving. It wasn’t until I was with my military sisters (other military wives) for an outing and was asked the famous “no kids yet?” I opened up about my fertility woes. One of them explained she and her husband had tried for ten years to get pregnant and she had PCOS. She was the first person to educate me on exactly what PCOS entailed. She was the type of woman who was knowledgeable on all things and because she had PCOS she was going to find out everything about it. It was then that I learned of the hormonal aspect of PCOS and being insulin resistant. Once I began doing my research for myself from the websites she directed me to I became engrossed in the information I found.  It was as if someone had been watching me the last decade and writing about it all over the Internet. My crazy hormonal rages before my cycles, this pain that would make me crawl up in the fetal position every month with or without menstruating, the missed cycles up to nine months, the inconsistent period here or there, the fluctuating   weight. For years I thought the pain was normal and every woman experienced. I actually thought most of it was normal.  Now I can’t blame all the pain on PCOS. Endometriosis was the real culprit of the pain but PCOS would have me so tender especially on my right side near my ovaries. I learned so much about myself and how my body was responding. I still did not want to accept it or use it, as what I thought was an excuse. So I did what we women do best I didn’t deal with it. Now here I am 3 years later after finding out all the information, a little over 10 years after being diagnosed with PCOS that I’m ready to “deal” with it the condition. There is no cure. I have to live with it…I’m ready to embrace it.

That day I also gained something so beautiful I learned what hope was because after those ten years of her and hubby trying they had a beautiful baby girl. I hope she reads this and realize the hope she instilled in me and the inspiration to start this journey… THANK YOU


Well family and friends here it is the “Big Reveal”…. I’m not pregnant! I know most of you were hoping that me being pregnant was the big surprise. However, the big news is the exact opposite. I have PCOS which causes infertility in women. PCOS stands for polycystic ovarian syndrome. It is a condition occurring in women of reproductive age. It is a hormonal disorder that can cause excessive hair growth (especially on the face, chin, and chest of females), acne, infrequent, prolonged,or no menstrual cycles, obesity and infertility. It can be sometimes diagnosed by the presence of small cysts on the ovaries.


So why announce to everyone? Two reasons. One, after being married almost five years the question comes up daily and I’m tired of trying to explain ;). Two, and the most important reason, is nearly 7 million women in the United States have PCOS and countless others have PCOS and do not even know. I want to educate everyone on this condition that effects so many people. The knowledge of how to treat and cope with PCOS is invaluable. It could possibly save marriages and friendships. Not using it as an excuse but PCOS can make you well…bitchy. Educating people can also save lives since PCOS can cause type 2-Diabetes and heart disease. PCOS makes most women insulin resistant even if they do not have a family history of diabetes. The cause of PCOS is unknown and it can occur in all women of any race. I want to impact the lives of women, help support other women with PCOS, and infertility.


I’ve wanted to be a mother as long as I can remember. I think its the bond that I have with my mother and watching my aunts with their children. In my family mother and aunt are one in the same. I have longed for that same bond where my little ones will look up to me and love me unconditionally. So the husband and I decided to conceive a few years ago so we started seeking fertility treatment. This has been the most triumphant roller-coaster ride I’ve ever been on. Tears, blood (literally), sweat, more tears then down right wailing, fights, break-ups, envy, smiles, joy, happiness, depression, anger, soul-searching,quitting, then trying again, separation, tears again, love, finding peace, losing weight, gaining weight, and more tears.


I want to share my journey with the world. So please visit the site regularly. Learn, laugh, love, and cry with me…


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